i heart gwen.

The first non-country or oldies CD I ever owned was No Doubt Tragic Kingdom. I got it when I turned 15. I loved it! I listened to it in my room with the volume turned up as loud as a dared. It was loud, it was in your face, and I realized that even girls can rock it. Since then I've rocked out to No Doubt and Gwen and love everything they do. I had such a freaking cool night last night. Marcie (pal/aunt) and I went to No Doubt. We had awesome seats on the floor about 40' from the stage. Check it out...

She speaks to me. I wish I could be a punk girl singing in a band full of dudes and rock it!



Coolest part of the night? I caught her half full Fiji water bottle when she flung it out into the crowd. I know! That stuff never happens to me! But it did last night. sigh. I feel 15 again, and not the awkward part.

I wrote the post below in a blog I started a long time ago that was more of a personal journal. Its about their song "Simple Kind of Life" and she sang it last night dedicated it to her kids. I kind of teared up when she sang it. I wrote this the week I found out I was pregnant with Sol:

"Simple Kind Of Life"

-No Doubt

For a long time I was in love
Not only in love, I was obsessed
With a friendship that no one else could touch
It didn't work out, I'm covered in shells

And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life
And all I needed was a simple man
So I could be a wife

I'm so ashamed, I've been so mean
I don't know how it got to this point
I always was the one with all the love
You came along, I'm hunting you down

Like a sick domestic abuser looking for a fight
And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life

If we met tomorrow for the very first time
Would it start all over again?
Would I try to make you mine?

I always thought I'd be a mom
Sometimes I wish for a mistake
The longer that I wait the more selfish that I get
You seem like you'd be a good dad

Now all those simple things are simply too complicated for my life
How'd I get so faithful to my freedom?
A selfish kind of life
When all I ever wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life

I love Gwen. I've heard this song a few times the last couple days and it's made me think a lot about how each of us really just wants 'a simple kind of life'. There are so many things the world tells us that we should want and go after to be a real person. To be 'AWESOME.' Often times its money, adventure, travel, fashion, lovers, etc. But when we look at our heart of hearts, don't we all want a simple kind of life.

True love and companionship, to be someone's everything, to be a mom or dad, to buy tiny baby socks, to have a 4th of July Barbeque with the neighbors, to sit on the porch and drink lemonade. I dare say everyone that walks this earth has a secret desire to have just a little bit of this life. For some reason this dream isn't worthy of our time any more. Specifically, I've felt embarassed that I want so badly to have a baby. It's not a worthy dream! A worthy dream would be to have a glamorous career, jetting around the country in tight sexy business suites with 7 different electronics strapped to my person. Now that is a dream worth going for! (said semi-sarcastically)

I've struggled to walk that line between a simple life and a sexy marketing career- and trust me, it can be sexy to me. I think I could get really excited for the next 5 years or so about pursuing a career, moving up the corporate ladder, and really enjoy myself. But I know, after 5 years or more went by, i'd be singing it with Gwen, pink hair and all, "I always thought, I'd be a mom..." I can't wait to buy some tiny socks. :)

http://youtube.com/watch?v=02Q9tJMjbec

Thanks for reading through all my ramblings. Afterall, I'm just a girl. Thanks for an awesome night Marcie and Gwen.